1:06 AM, Friday, March 26, 2010A mask that hid everything.
Kill the voiceClose your eyes
Drown in the darkness
Roam around
I won't depend on anyone anymore.
(Me: My hair WAS long)
(Peiling made this for me!)
Why cant others just understand that
People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places?
For example, like the secret maps of our own history
and diagrams of our own old wounds.
Although, most of the people's wound heals and leave nothing
but a scar, but some people's wound dont.
Some wounds we've to carry around with us everywhere
and though the cut is gone,
the pain still lingers.
Sometimes, I wonder whether I'm the only one that
have to always put on a happy mask and never ever remove
it in order to hide my real feelings and moods.
Everytime, whenever I remove that mask,
everyone would get so furious and agitated.
Some even yelled at me like as if my unhappiness
is their business.
And is not like I threw tantrum or anything,
and in fact, I've never thrown any tantrum at anybody.
I only showed other feelings besides happiness.
But why is it that some people can remove
that mask of theirs?
And why is it that some people can dont
even choose to wear that mask?
Why can't I be like them?
I may be happy most of the time but that doesnt mean
that I'm not a human..
I've other feelings too besides being happy like all other humans.
So why can't people just accept my sadness, anger
or other feelings just like how they accept other
people's one?
PS. Thank you Zhang Cong and Chong L.L. aka Jialing
for talking to me and really bothered to listen to me
when I was feeling really really upset.
Don't kid yourself and
don't wound yourself.
don't wound yourself.
